First in a Long Time

So there you are.
New blog, re-newed me.
I have been putting off many things lately.

It is indeed silly how technology plays a huge part of my life.
For instance, how I was awaiting the arrival of
1. New digital camera
2. My own personal laptop (for university)
3. Many new external hard disks
Just so I can refresh this particular point in my life.

Okay, so I did not obtain all 3 'goals', but I achieved No. 1.
Yes, my advanced birthday gift from my family which I am going to foot half of it because it is so damn freaking costly.
W300 Sony Cyber-Shot from the PC Show, $799.
Yes, it is a bomb I KNOW.

But hey, it's enough to spur me to begin this turning point of my life.
I believe everyone who knows me knows that I have been living in self-denial quite intensively of late.
The main reason(s):
My life sort of came to a standstill when NTU's Communication Studies rejected me via 3 channels. I guess, my mind just cannot register it. Now, it all boils down to one more channel. I am still hoping the dean gives me the green light (Okay, I am trying really hard to stay positive here.) Let's just put it this way, rejection is hard to deal with, and multiple rejections are even bloody freaking so much harder to deal with. You know, the impact of it that includes, beating up the self-esteem quite severely, demoralisation to a very extensive degree, bruised ego...the list goes on. To start off, I have never been quite a self-confident person. So yes, can you picture the type of doldrums I had sunk into now? Plus, these negative emotions kind of churned into really bad thoughts.

And now, I am using the arrival of my new technology (W300 Sony Cyber-Shot) to establish the start of this turning point. Yeay for me (:

I am picking myself up, finally, after indulging in many stages of escapism. From this pitfall, that enhanced my flaws and allow myself a clearer view. Pick myself up to become a better person. You can say, I have more or less begun accepting to enter NUS's FASS (I still have hopes in the dean), but less of self-denial now.

A lengthy first, so bye for now.

This, now marks the start of my life ramblings.