Pa

I felt like my daddy just aged 20 years in a blink of an eye.

):

I love you, Pa.

Please try to stay healthy.

I Am Burning.

All of the boys and the girls here, in Paris.
Sing to the night without sight, but with madness.
I can't keep up, I'm a wreck, but I want it.
Tell me the truth, is it love or just Paris?

My heart is yearning, but Paris is burning.
Paris is burning all night long.
My heart is dreaming, but Paris is screaming.
Paris is screaming all night long.

Kids in the street drinking wine, on the sidewalk.
Saving the plans that we made, 'till its night time.
Give me your glass, its your last, you're too wasted.
Or get me one too, 'cause I'm due any tasting.

I've lost my way, its hard to find it through.
I see the night, but im lost outside of you.
I've lost my way, its hard to find it through.
I see the night, but im lost outside of you

COM206 shoot is down. COM 225 shoot tomorrow and Sunday.

Woah.

My stomach aches suddenly.

I cannot wait for Sunday, & I probably bitched about people 10 million times more than I usually have.

Karma, break a leg please.

Stomach, aches.

Bangkok & Mexico, wait for me.

Do not disappoint.

Heartbreaker

Remember when, I caught your eye,
You gave me rainbows, and butterflies,
We did enjoy, a happiness,
When our love was over, I was such a mess,
I smiled at you, and you smiled back,
That's when I new, there's no turning back,
You said you loved me, and I did too,
Although it's over, I still love you

You're in my mind, you're in my heart,
I wish I knew, right from the start,
All my friends say, you'd break my heart,
A heartbreaker, right from the start.

I tried to fight it, I tried so hard,
And everyday I'd pray to God,
That you an me, were meant to be,
But you had another, you had a lover,
And now it's gone, I don't know why,
I feel like crying, just wanna die,
I can't look at you, and you know why,
Know I tried so hard, to catch your eye

You're in my mind, you're in my heart,
I wish I knew, right from the start,
All my friends say, you'd break my heart,
A heartbreaker, right from the start.

I Change Shapes Just To Hide In This Place

Then I stopped dreaming, now I'm supposed to fill it up with something, something, something.

Something.

Friday - Sleep, Skip lesson

Saturday - Sleep, Heavenly Kings, Seven with Sinema (WOAH FANGIRL MIAO ARISE AGAIN DAY)

Sunday - Study (a little little bit), Aoki/Diplo (waste maahhh timeee)

Monday - Sleep, try to study (aiyah fangirl miao please die, you're distracting me)

ACADEMIC SUICIDE

By the way, I tweet now (miaoelectric)

Just because.

School Blues

Hello all or to no one in particular.

The new semester begins in approximately 8 hours. I cannot sleep.

Anxiety? Excitement?

Not sure, but I'm defin

itely overwhelmed. Every new semester, or academic year, (I presume) feels like it's going to be as disoriented as tonight.

How does it feel?

It feels like it's the very first day I'm attending school (any levels of education). To adjust, adapt, meet and befriend new people.

I am feeling so disoriented, coupled with my messy room, things everywhere, mind everywhere, thoughts everywhere mood. I cannot do anything right now. ):

But I made junebug a card which I am passing to her tomorrow! It's a surprise and I'm writing it here. Hawhaw, let's just hope she doesn't reads this in the next 24 hours.

And I totally wrote a letter for my mortal. It is so awesome. But I shall name no one or details. I am just pysched for a wacky reply, hopefully.

Now here to entertain myself, and maybe you.

CHECK OUT MAH NEW HAIR, KIDZZZ!

I'm So Stupid

hahahahaha I just realised I posted my home address for the World Wide Web to see.
I Not (So) Stupid.

Okay, so I had a delightful birthday celebration(s) with friends. (love you all long time)
And I'm feeling lazy to type. But thank you all! You know who you are. Strawberries from my colleague, Tiffany! Cat book from Mavis, Gaylords and Weiliang. Aiyah Sarah Rod, Dessy, Ruilong, Angel, Liwen, Alicia, Wei lin, Qianqian. And everyone whom I may have missed. Of course my family (my brother who says he will get me Blackberry in Septemeber, yah right)

& I think it's pretty cool I'm learning on the job. Although I think it's a little intimidating for myself, because I seem too over eager to learn that I appear like I am desperate 'to rise'. But I'm honestly not, I just want to learn, want to be productive and not 'zuo bo', and it's easier to kill time that way too. hahaha my rice bowl story has travelled far and wide.

Anyway, moderator for a Talkback! Session. I.AM.TERRIFIED. (I can do it!)
Uhh.

Postcards from All Over The World!
This time San Francisco(left no name, I think it's Wenxu) and Norway(the fabulous DS who calls himself my awesome friend).
And postcrossing...I still have yet to send 2. and 2 that I have sent, have reached their destinations (Finland and Germany!)
Let's hope I get one postcard soon from a postcrosser!
Whoopee!

Tokyo Oy!

I have to say this holiday has been rather fulfilling, in the sense that I am pretty much occcupied in a balanced manner. With work and play, that is. I'm contented. And awfully touched by the people around me!

Sunday, today.
Lunch with Halphas, don't really wanna go all OG but I can't help it.
I'm not saying we are a tight bunch, but the group's dynamics never fails to bring out a decent amount of chatter and laughter.
Chia Heng got me a snack from Tokyo Disneyland (souvenir/birthday gift). Which I honestly did not expect. And the OG also bought me The Sims 3 for my birthday!

Aww...
I feel fortunate/lucky/loved.
And I apologise if my 'showing off' just made you belch. HAWHAW.

Thank You Everybody!
(Hearts all over the world tonight, Hah!)

And in case you are wondering, yes the narcissistic nature in me has indeed increased exponentially. Explains the Photo Booth shots lately.

Postcards from All Over The World

My postcard frenzy shall start.
This is the first, from Kevin when he was in London.
Await the next, from Daosheng in Norway!

Excite.

Snap Back

I am now officially progressing to Year Two. No longer a freshman, haha.

So the exams are finally over, and I'm so glad.
A worry-free long holiday ahead of me, or maybe not.
At least academic wise, it will be worry-free.

I'm back at home, haha. Hall was my shelter. Exams & studies were outlets for me to escape.
It's probably silly saying all these.
But now that I don't have to worry about my GPA at the moment, the harsher reality sets in.
Family matters.
I don't love hall, but it was a source for the escapism I sinfully indulged in. My family treated me better, don't get me wrong, I'm not being abused. But I'm sure you get my drift.
The short periods of weekends I spend at home, sets me free from the daily squabbles/arguments/screams in my home.
Now that I'm back, haha it's only right I face them. Doesn't help that the economic downturn policies are affecting my daddy. But hey, no sulking.
I'm honestly glad I'm home, with my family. I do miss them, even though my mom screams and shouts at me everyday and sets me at a agonizing mood every single day. I still love her. Despite me also raising my voice at her. It's like the things they do, I wanna show them how much I appreciate & treasure them. I try to be nicer, words and actions, but they always come out wrongly. I know I get agitated easily. Ah well, I'm not phrasing my thoughts properly.
But yeah, I'm glad to be home, so I can spend more time with them, and make my parents happy, by just being there. Even though my mom pours all her menopause emotional shit on me.
Although I'm pretty affected, although it's the same old things.
GOT TO DO WHAT I GOT TO DO.

I shall pack/unpack the stuff I moved back plus my room. It's messy, dusty, filthy. Probably makes my mom feel better. Probably makes me feel better, therapeutic. hahaha!

Haha, on a side note my brother just asked me to accompany him to polyclinic. After a screamfest by my mom. That fat dick has got high cholestrol, my brother is obese, needs a checkup before his NS. And so I am going to start swimming during the holidays as well!!! For healhy and beauty.

And back to what I was saying. My heart aches when I see my daddy's frail and stiff body. My heart aches when I see my mom's fury taking its toll on her health. But all they think about is money. I feel bad. I don't feel like typing anymore. I wish I can do something more for my parents.

So anyway, the bottomline is I AM LOOKING FOR A HOLIDAY JOB!!! I cannot wait to start working, and I can only do it after my cambodia trip (which I am feeling very fucking guilty about because of the extremely recent happenings to the family situation). So I just hope I can do more for my parents, lighten their burden. So I can contribute to lighten the load. Give my parents 50-50 of the pay that I hope I get. So I'm thinking...should I still ask around for production-related jobs or others. Haven't come to a decision yet, so I won't be asking the people I have in mind yet. Somehow, I have a hunch I will still end up doing production-related. Shall consider my choices first. I want to learn more things on the job as well.

Any lobangs after mid-May, call me okay!

Oh and I'm so glad I will be seeing Chow tomorrow night (should be at least). awesome possumzz. am sure glad I found a friend in her.

Tattoo, or not?

Starrr Guitar's ringing in my head.

Tattoo, always at the back of my head.
But the spur came on again, thinking about it.
In the beginning, I always thought I want a simple star design somewhere small, a little obscure.
Then, I came across this tattoo.

A kitty! Haha, with angelic wings. And maybe a little bit of clouds around.
It looked really pretty, like My Protector.

Anyhow, it's time to study Espanol.

If I had a wish

All I would ask for right now will be this



Then, I will be the most contented lady.

You're Sinking Below

I settled my weary self in the lecture theatre. Restless fingers twirling the blue pen in my right hand. My shifty eyes darted all sides and corners and then I saw you walk in.
Your hourglass silhouette, clasped in the oversized sweater.
Cheekily, your deep-valley cleavage peered out where horny boys would love to snuggle and rub their noses in at the first chance.
I sat there, checked you out.
Your hips, yours breasts, your neck...then your face.

I realised how ugly you suddenly looked to me. And the sight of your face utterly disgust me.
My body cringed as I see you engage in your friendly girlfriends better with the person behind me.
There, I couldn't bear to look at your face for the rest of the night.

Today...

Someone whom I have not spoken to in a long while, told me
"Look after --- ---, ok?"
"She's special."

I think, it's wonderful, how they both are special to me.
& I will look after her, for you.

Because It's Magic, It Really Is.

Friday, I'm in love.
For sho, shizzle mah nizzle.

Have you ever been in love?
In the longest time, it was true love, all over again.
Lovefoxx, she's magical.
She's amazing.

It's like, I want to relive last night, over and over.
And mob her ten times more!
Hahaha!

What is love?
She is love.

P M S

I feel so upset now,
so upset that I want to bawl my eyes out over my dad's wrongly-prepared asparagus dish
):

Sigh, I was looking forward to the asparagus all week long.
So disappointed I want to cry.
Fuck. PMS.

What Made My Day

Today is a happy day.
I was at Canteen 16 for dinner tonight.

#1. The Noodles Aunty stared at me and said:

"Wah so cute! Your hair!"

#2. The Western Food store Uncle when serving my food commented:

"Your hair very nice. I also want to dye like yours. Is it very fashionable now?"

#3. A female stranger at the drinks stall beside me asked:

"Where did you get your hair done?"
"Um, Far East Plaza."
"It's very nice."


:D :D :D :D :D :D

How much more could I ask for? It means so much more because they are strangers.

Hahaha!

My brother was helping me churn out questions for my 204 interview. He digressed in his typing when I was away brushing my teeth. Guess what greeted me in my MS Word document when I got back?

6. Are you gay?
7. Do you like boys?
8. How big is your penis?
9. Do you drive to look for whores in geylang, or say Changi Village?
10. How big is your son’s penis?
11. Do you advocate inbreeding?
12. Is your penis still working?
13. Do you still have sex with your wife, or do you still have sex with someone else?
14. Have you tried anal sex?
15. Have you been fucked in the ass, HARD?
16. CO0o0o0o0o0o0o0oL.

CB. Damn funny.

.

Cheebye
FUCK YOU BROTHER!
FUCK OFF KANINA!

Oh Don't You Let Me Go Tonight

http://www.vimeo.com/2993894

Lykke Li's live rendition of Tonight.
Black & White
So raw, so powerful.

Link may not exist after a while.

And I can't wait for tomorrow, oh tomorrow.

Argh!

Fuck off, bitch.
My brother is such a fucking jerk at times.
Hope ALEXIS BREAKS UP WITH YOU AGAIN FUCKER!!!
GO AND DIE!

Skins

DO NOT READ AHEAD (SKINS SPOILERS!!!)






I'm finally done with Skins Season 1 & 2.
I really enjoyed this drama. Sid was my favourite character all along throughout Season 1, till he fucked Michelle in Season 2. Nono, Michelle is a pathetic slut. But you know, the geeks always get the girls (wait, but Michelle isn't even HOT...).
Tony grew more endearing in Season 2 with the bus crash and brain damage (??), unlike in Season 1, I loathe Tony for being such a man-slut with the utterly gruesome Abigail. But Tony's smart, the smartest one among the gang, that's where his attraction lies in. Tony's sincerity and vulnerability in Season 2 changed my mind. He's not that bad after all.
Cassie was just pure love-hate all the time. Her episode in Season one, the perpetual state of fantasy and un-reality, was a pure delight to watch. But yeah, she's still the one character I cannot decide whether to love or to hate.
Anwar, grew to like him in Season 2, the annoyingly funny guy, and his best friend, Maxxie!
Maxxie and his passion (and gayness), !!! I like, that kind of gentle soul.
My ultimate favourites will therefore go to JAL & CHRIS. Yes, Chris the junkie, the hero in the show. Chris's character is amazing, and so lovable. I really adore the friendship Cassie and Chris shares at the end. Chris 4evaaaa!!! And Jal, the most sensible girl.

Yep, it's true. Skins characters really do grow on you, each and every one of them.

They Won't Get Me

Nights like these,


I wonder who to call...

No, I won't let them get me.

Whaddup!

Haha school hasn't really sunk in yet with no tutorials for the first week.
So, I've been cooping myself in hall, trying to get designs out (which I have totally no experience and software to do so) So yes, I will only officially start studying proper next week because there's so many commitments I need to fulfil.
Oh how much I loathe canvassing.
Love how the guy's expression is in this video. Somehow, it really captivates me.