I Used To

I used to think the best of you
I used to see only the good in you

I used to miss you.

Voucher Splurge

I uhh...used my Isetan vouchers on an Armani Xchange Cardigan.

HAHAHA! I think it was an impulsive buy.

But there's no going back.

Anyway Hall 12 Recess Time! This monday night!!! :D come and play chapteh! :D
And please wear your school uniforms!
I like a boy in school uniform, school uniform! (The Pipettes, I think)

Look What Mr Postman Did Today

Goodbye & Farewell dear friend.
(:

Yeepp, the postman dropped my parcel off at my house this afternoon!
I got the stuff, I am pretty delighted about my Sadie Dress and Red Dorothy Flats!
:D
Happy buyer once again!

And yes, yesterday I finally went down to collect my first pay check from Big Comm.
Ahh two more to go. Oh shitzxz I forgot to deposit. >: ( ARGH!
Last night was CS DND, it was kind of boring at the start, and the pageant line-up was the snooze man. But I am very glad Joanne won the title anyhow!
Nu-Rave Queen! :D

Totally dig the music after pageant! Electroooooo! Teeheehee.
Last ones standing up against the wall!

And this afternoon was Liwei's cremation.
Final sendoff. A Heartbreaking scene.
Sigh.

Night was Timbre with Halphas!
The turnout was disappointing, slightly.
But the company was AWESOOMEE!!
Scooby Doo was visibly tipsy and rowdy, and easily provoked.
Charlie could not stop smiling like a Goofball.
Me Like Halphas.
They make me laugh. (:

Ciao ciao, you can call me dead meat for my school assignments.
For everything anything other than Play.
The rest of my pictures are on my Facebook.
Facebook is really good for sharing photos! (:

My Heart Thinks...

I miss...
Felicia Teo & Liwei
):

I wonder where she is now...
I wonder how he is now...

Both of you will always be in my heart.

Thinking Life's Not Fair...

I cannot believe that he won't be coming back.
Cannot accept it just yet.
That I won't be seeing your MSN nick pop up ever again...
So much emotions to pour out, yet I don't know how.
I know we weren't close or anything, but it's just...really getting to me.
I wished I took our friendship to a deeper level.
I didn't make the effort to keep in constant contact, even when you're just on my contact list...
Memories of you just keep replaying at the back of my head.
How I got to know you through the camps.
Those massive water bombs war games we played.
Once, I almost slipped and you caught hold of me. I didn't remember to thank you.
I'm sorry for the late appreciation. Thank you.
How you loved teasing girls.
And, the fact that you actually invited me for your birthday, that was a really nice gesture. Really.

I just want to say, Thank you for being my friend.
I wish you the best in your afterlife.
You will always be remembered, in our hearts and loving memory.
May you be well and happy, dear Liwei.

Go Well, My Friend.

Just minutes ago, I received the news that our dearest friend Li Wei, has passed on.
I am...too overwhelmed, too shocked by the news. Too numbed. My hands are cold and clammy.
Sigh...

To Li Wei:
Hello old friend, haven't spoken or seen you for a very long while. But your passing on still came as a huge shock to me. Never did see it coming. Rest in peace. I will always keep you in my memory. You will be greatly missed. Take care.

What's wrong with the world?

Falling Apart

They say, "No Man Is An Island".

But, what if I'm an island, whether I want it or not?
What if your life was never right from the start? And it just got increasingly worse as you grew?
Is it too late to rectify? (It's never too late for anything, people say.)
No, I do not share that exact same sentiments. I believe there's such thing as Too Late.
Is it too late? When there has been so many mistakes. You only realise it when you're old.
How do you pick up the pieces and piece them back all over again?

Loneliness can really tear up the soul sometimes.

So I blew SGD$102.62 on Yeesss.LJ again. This time using Janie's paypal! Hee hee. Thanks Janie. (:
Mr Postman, please come early. (:
Boy, am I excited to receive my purchase, as I always am.

I need to start.

Oh, and my brother may be sent over to Korea by Catalog! All expenses paid except allowance.
ZOMG.

Boy Oh Boy

An Australian production house just called me!
Although I have turned down their offer to be a PA once again.
But I have not experienced working in a non-singaporean production set before!
10 days shoot during school week. (Bonus part is I heard they pay more than Singaporean sets!)
$$$!!!

You see how network really gets you to places.
Power of connections, massive!

Anyway, I am hoping to see AA4 girls during recess week! I miss Amirah, somewhat. ):

Great week ahead to everyone, and to myself as well. (:

Just a random want: I hope Tuesday night will be Electroooo!

Bad Writer, I Am.

YongC says blogging helps in my writing. It is the practice.
I know he is going to read this. Haha.

Blogging helps, but sadly, I do not blog enough for the practice to actually come to the slightest bit of usefulness.
Maybe, it's time to start.

Last night was Hall JCRC Investiture.
I can swear my head off, the hall atmosphere made me so sleepy.
My eyes could not keep wide open. Despite the fact that I was standing throughout the entire event, my eyes...
I felt like I was in a complete daze the entire time.

Return to my room, and evolved into a grouch monster.
A lonely soul in a 2 bedroom room. Mavis is always leaving early in the week!
A terrible headache took me over, I just had to nap.
Woke up and finally got down to watching an episode of Flight Of The Conchords.
It's hilarious shitzxz. No, really. It is.
The songs the crazy duo sing can become intensive ear worms, seriously.

And I am secretly excited/pysched/stoked for CS DnD.
Ha-ha. I bought senseless things like the old school Yellow Power Ranger Plastic Mask!
And Ultra-Man too. And, some other things.
Not quite sure if I am going to use everything, that's if I'm even going.

So, it is officially the start of Recess Week for me.
And I need to pack Hall stuff to bring back to Home Sweet Home.
Hee Hee got to bring back my smelly dirty soft bolster!
AND OF COURSE THE IDEA OF SLEEPING IN COLD AIR!!!

The weather has been quite nasty of late.

It Backfired At The Disco, I hope not.

What Gives You The Right

I cannot understand why my mom's extended family behaves the way they do.
They are, extremely insensitive with their words.
Honest.
How can?!

I'm not angry, I am just...haha tickled yet appalled by the way the words they spilled over the buffet dinner tonight, and even in the car! (although it really should not be a surprise to anyone)

Amazing. I am glad my cousins, aren't remotely like them.

So Happy 21st birthday Moretta! :D and to Aloysius too! Basic courtesy to greet (haha I know they won't come across this anyway)
Happy Birthday Candy Leow and LOUISA CHEW!!!

So, last weekend had me doing the CRAZIEST MOST HYSTERICAL THING I have ever done in my life. Publicity stunt for Painted Skin. For the money, Ching Ching Ching. Whoo and free movie tickets too! Yeay looking forward to watching it.

Treated my lovely Daddy to Ayam Penyet at Lucky Plaza after the madness I got myself into. I was indeed very glad and comforted to have Cecilia with me the entire day, who well could not stop laughing at the way I looked the entire time. It was nice seeing her and Noel at Mediacorp.

What I did, was fucking hilarious, seriously.

I can't believe I actually got the guts to do such crap stuff, although inside I was all a nervous wreck and scared.

Sunday night was a little get-together before the dear one flew to the UK. London! Monday morning, was her flight and send off. Ayee, I will miss her so...

So anyway, I had a busy first half of the week. So many appointments and meetings kept clashing. I really loathe it when things keep clashing and crowding my schedule. Really HATE it when everything just comes at once. ):

Last night (Tuesday) was Fish Head Steamboat with the Wawa production team. Definitely neat to see all of them once again. Wawa is such a family production team, warm and fuzzy. Nice.
And guess what, Perfect Cut Season II is going to start production soon!!! So is REM. Hahaha excitement for me during the holidays. (maybe I am counting my chicks much too soon even before the hatch) And Tonight, (Wednesday) was Moretta's 21st at Merchant Court Hotel. Buffet! I ate like 1kg of salmon sashimi and 10,000 oysters! Hahahaha!

And tomorrow is investiture, omg so busy, so hectic. I hate this feeling...
When I come back into hall, it's weird but I feel empty inside many times.
It's like I am perpetually lost. I can't seem to find where I belong exactly.
Ah, what the fuck.

Anyhow, I have decided to pull out of Amirah's lobang of the F1 ear plugs job. Aye. (I must be missing out A WHOLE DAMN LOT on the moolah, but I guess, I need to prioritise other things this time) So basically, that's it.

I have too many things on my mind, I think it's exploding. ):

Keep Safe, Dear One

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when YOU leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

I will like to dedicate this entry to my Most Precious Friend, Chua Wei Lin.
Who has been through with me since the tender age of thirteen.
From my adolescent, teenage years to the present of now, Coming Of Age (Haha, yet to be would be more appropriate, but almost, just almost) Growing out of teenage angst into adulthood together.
A Great Friend of 7 years.
Albeit the fact that we are both on an almost entirely different track now, in many ways.
Not as many silly common things to laugh about, bitch about, get upset about etcetra as before in our blue pinafore school uniform days, or our red and blue Band uniform days, or our musical MEP days.
I know I have said all these before, in cards, in blog entries... I think I have to say it again.

All these doesn't change what I think of our friendship. I am really glad I found a friend like you in my life. I am thankful for the laughter and everything else that came along with the package of You being My Friend. Just so you know, I really treasure our friendship, really.

I know I haven't been the best of friend to you, by not making more effort to call you up, to meet you or just to annoy you, haha. Plus, well, I am not exactly a very expressive person of my affections to begin with. To tell you how much you mean to me. I'll tell you now, you mean a whole damn lot to me.

And now, I want to wish you all the best in UK. I hope you have a really fantabulous wonderful terrific experience over there. A blast of your time, the best time of your life.

I will miss you, Chilli Padi.

<3,
Feli

Fucking Moody

Argh.

Screw The World.

So bloody moody I added excess detergent into my laundry.

What Exactly Makes You Tick

I miss Fawq ):

Play, Pause, Rewind

Ah Fuck, I am really feeling damn bad now.

Why do I always not think before I act.
Fuck lah.

Boredom Is An Illness

Can You Cure It For Me?

Hello, I want to show you my favourite neighbour in hall.
Dessy! And Our Sisters Group, (Eric the Mr Popular)

Please pardon the sudden influx of Mac Photo Booth's photos. I know it is taking over the Pictures World, I previously swore not to end up a massive Photo Boother and it looks like I have broken my secret oath. I am a victim of this trend, I gave in to peer pressure (Maybe Personal). Blame it on being a technology so convenient and random time-killer that can produce loads of fun for all of us.


I think I make the most senseless posts ever.
So Friday after school was spent filming for Wenxu & Joan.
Headed out to get supper. I can't believe I keep losing to Wenxu in the 5-10-15 game!!! >: (
Argh fragmented sentences, my brain is always automatically summarizing my thoughts. Pffft.
Saturday morning was filming again for them. And it's a wrap! (:
So when you have a wrap, you naturally have a wrap party. This time, it was Bak Kut Teh, their treat! :D It was simply delectable. Whoo Hoo! Then Home Sweet Home it was.
I CAN ACT! (haha more like their expectations were not strict) I am actually quite missing the entire production process all over again. Over sentimental I must say, very, must be the Monster PMS. Anyhow, it was a great pleasure and joy to uh 'work' with such good company. Wenxu and Joan were really nice to Pedro & I. And Pedro was a great sport, for tolerating all my random antics and entertaining me as well. Hope I helped good enough for them!
Suddenly, they make me appreciate SCI (just a little bit) haha!


I feel horrible deep inside for not informing Mavis!!! ): It's like this waterfall of guilt gushing down on me. Bahh.

This Is My Heart

What The Snowman Learned About Love

This song is so queeshy, I don't know how to say. It just makes my heart melts.

Mel Ann is back in Singapore! For a week. I hope I can make time to meet her up.
Anyway, I have the most happening roommate. Haha so glad I have Mavis around.

Monday afternoon, Mavis decided to capture the Hall 12 Resident Cat to bring it to our room.
The cleaning Aunty scolded us, she said cat poo is smelly. ): But wth, it was a very funny thing to do. And I wish I could write better with more expressive words to display the excitement of catching the cat, but for now, this is the best I can do. Pardon me. Played with the kitty, it was so adorable!!!

I Really Adore Cats.

Another exciting event this week, will be Wei Lin coming down to NTU for Sushi buffet with dear old Jiang. Haha Old.
And Photo Boothing and Amelie later.

Ah bye, I have Sound in Our Daily Life quiz next Wednesday, AKA Physics quiz.
I shall go START LEARNING.
Aren't I simply the best at procrastination.
Goodbye.