Snap Back

I am now officially progressing to Year Two. No longer a freshman, haha.

So the exams are finally over, and I'm so glad.
A worry-free long holiday ahead of me, or maybe not.
At least academic wise, it will be worry-free.

I'm back at home, haha. Hall was my shelter. Exams & studies were outlets for me to escape.
It's probably silly saying all these.
But now that I don't have to worry about my GPA at the moment, the harsher reality sets in.
Family matters.
I don't love hall, but it was a source for the escapism I sinfully indulged in. My family treated me better, don't get me wrong, I'm not being abused. But I'm sure you get my drift.
The short periods of weekends I spend at home, sets me free from the daily squabbles/arguments/screams in my home.
Now that I'm back, haha it's only right I face them. Doesn't help that the economic downturn policies are affecting my daddy. But hey, no sulking.
I'm honestly glad I'm home, with my family. I do miss them, even though my mom screams and shouts at me everyday and sets me at a agonizing mood every single day. I still love her. Despite me also raising my voice at her. It's like the things they do, I wanna show them how much I appreciate & treasure them. I try to be nicer, words and actions, but they always come out wrongly. I know I get agitated easily. Ah well, I'm not phrasing my thoughts properly.
But yeah, I'm glad to be home, so I can spend more time with them, and make my parents happy, by just being there. Even though my mom pours all her menopause emotional shit on me.
Although I'm pretty affected, although it's the same old things.
GOT TO DO WHAT I GOT TO DO.

I shall pack/unpack the stuff I moved back plus my room. It's messy, dusty, filthy. Probably makes my mom feel better. Probably makes me feel better, therapeutic. hahaha!

Haha, on a side note my brother just asked me to accompany him to polyclinic. After a screamfest by my mom. That fat dick has got high cholestrol, my brother is obese, needs a checkup before his NS. And so I am going to start swimming during the holidays as well!!! For healhy and beauty.

And back to what I was saying. My heart aches when I see my daddy's frail and stiff body. My heart aches when I see my mom's fury taking its toll on her health. But all they think about is money. I feel bad. I don't feel like typing anymore. I wish I can do something more for my parents.

So anyway, the bottomline is I AM LOOKING FOR A HOLIDAY JOB!!! I cannot wait to start working, and I can only do it after my cambodia trip (which I am feeling very fucking guilty about because of the extremely recent happenings to the family situation). So I just hope I can do more for my parents, lighten their burden. So I can contribute to lighten the load. Give my parents 50-50 of the pay that I hope I get. So I'm thinking...should I still ask around for production-related jobs or others. Haven't come to a decision yet, so I won't be asking the people I have in mind yet. Somehow, I have a hunch I will still end up doing production-related. Shall consider my choices first. I want to learn more things on the job as well.

Any lobangs after mid-May, call me okay!

Oh and I'm so glad I will be seeing Chow tomorrow night (should be at least). awesome possumzz. am sure glad I found a friend in her.