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Hi all,
I want to say I am very disappointed in myself today because I took my own damn bloody sweet time doing the KNNCCB econs paper (Which did not appear that hard to me at all) and so I ended up with fucking loads of blanks which probably going to cost me one grade down maybe two maybe three?!?!

And because this is the paper I have been studying so much for (relative & subjective, mind you.) OMG I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY!!! I just hope that my efforts will be paid off. And no, I am not feeling good right now because of the paper. Because I know I can do so much better if I had FILL IN ALL MY BLANKS!!! I feel like squeezing my brains into juices and eat them. Hahahaha yes, that's right, I am going insane!!! You hear me?! Insane?!!!

Okay, so it's over. Don't cry over spilt milk, right? So I have cried my share (not literally) and there. I'm over this phase. Taking this paper makes me feel like...

Q. I want to be a singer/in a band/rockstar/music goddess whatever you call it, why?
Ans: Because I want to not face any more exams, and just make music (I need to nurture my musical genius me first), and the best of all, make music videos! Make them the way Hot Chip makes it, make them the way Chemical brothers make it, make the craziest videos ever that ever appeared in this planet earth. Why, I think I don't even mind being a backstage dancer for them or any part of the video for that matter. Eradicate exams! (okay this is hyperbole shit, I do not really hate exams, I just need to let it out, LET IT OUT!) No wait, I shall leave the exams to exist in our world, and so those book people can look at me ROCKSTAR my life away!

And once again, I make no sense. I just had to type. I just had to do it.

And I discovered SOMEBODY! GayGod! on Youtube. What I can say is, he is so fucking damn cute and damn hot, never mind that he is gay. NEVER MIND. He is sooooooooooooo hoooooottttt! and I think I just allowed my groupie crush surface (after surpressing it for a long period of time to save my face from embarassment). HAHHAHA but he's really damn hot.

Okay, so because of my mood today. I absolutely have no mood no drive no motivation to kickstart me back into my studying momentum (not that I have been studying alot), but yes, I am so freaking bored, I want to do something entertaining, but I have NO IDEA what to do at all. But I have decided, finally, that I shall go do some personality quizzes, and entertain myself with those shit about myself (yeah I love myself, doesn't everybody?)

Bye, I will be, Better In Time.
Yes, I will.