I'm So Stupid

hahahahaha I just realised I posted my home address for the World Wide Web to see.
I Not (So) Stupid.

Okay, so I had a delightful birthday celebration(s) with friends. (love you all long time)
And I'm feeling lazy to type. But thank you all! You know who you are. Strawberries from my colleague, Tiffany! Cat book from Mavis, Gaylords and Weiliang. Aiyah Sarah Rod, Dessy, Ruilong, Angel, Liwen, Alicia, Wei lin, Qianqian. And everyone whom I may have missed. Of course my family (my brother who says he will get me Blackberry in Septemeber, yah right)

& I think it's pretty cool I'm learning on the job. Although I think it's a little intimidating for myself, because I seem too over eager to learn that I appear like I am desperate 'to rise'. But I'm honestly not, I just want to learn, want to be productive and not 'zuo bo', and it's easier to kill time that way too. hahaha my rice bowl story has travelled far and wide.

Anyway, moderator for a Talkback! Session. I.AM.TERRIFIED. (I can do it!)
Uhh.

Postcards from All Over The World!
This time San Francisco(left no name, I think it's Wenxu) and Norway(the fabulous DS who calls himself my awesome friend).
And postcrossing...I still have yet to send 2. and 2 that I have sent, have reached their destinations (Finland and Germany!)
Let's hope I get one postcard soon from a postcrosser!
Whoopee!

Tokyo Oy!

I have to say this holiday has been rather fulfilling, in the sense that I am pretty much occcupied in a balanced manner. With work and play, that is. I'm contented. And awfully touched by the people around me!

Sunday, today.
Lunch with Halphas, don't really wanna go all OG but I can't help it.
I'm not saying we are a tight bunch, but the group's dynamics never fails to bring out a decent amount of chatter and laughter.
Chia Heng got me a snack from Tokyo Disneyland (souvenir/birthday gift). Which I honestly did not expect. And the OG also bought me The Sims 3 for my birthday!

Aww...
I feel fortunate/lucky/loved.
And I apologise if my 'showing off' just made you belch. HAWHAW.

Thank You Everybody!
(Hearts all over the world tonight, Hah!)

And in case you are wondering, yes the narcissistic nature in me has indeed increased exponentially. Explains the Photo Booth shots lately.

Postcards from All Over The World

My postcard frenzy shall start.
This is the first, from Kevin when he was in London.
Await the next, from Daosheng in Norway!

Excite.

Snap Back

I am now officially progressing to Year Two. No longer a freshman, haha.

So the exams are finally over, and I'm so glad.
A worry-free long holiday ahead of me, or maybe not.
At least academic wise, it will be worry-free.

I'm back at home, haha. Hall was my shelter. Exams & studies were outlets for me to escape.
It's probably silly saying all these.
But now that I don't have to worry about my GPA at the moment, the harsher reality sets in.
Family matters.
I don't love hall, but it was a source for the escapism I sinfully indulged in. My family treated me better, don't get me wrong, I'm not being abused. But I'm sure you get my drift.
The short periods of weekends I spend at home, sets me free from the daily squabbles/arguments/screams in my home.
Now that I'm back, haha it's only right I face them. Doesn't help that the economic downturn policies are affecting my daddy. But hey, no sulking.
I'm honestly glad I'm home, with my family. I do miss them, even though my mom screams and shouts at me everyday and sets me at a agonizing mood every single day. I still love her. Despite me also raising my voice at her. It's like the things they do, I wanna show them how much I appreciate & treasure them. I try to be nicer, words and actions, but they always come out wrongly. I know I get agitated easily. Ah well, I'm not phrasing my thoughts properly.
But yeah, I'm glad to be home, so I can spend more time with them, and make my parents happy, by just being there. Even though my mom pours all her menopause emotional shit on me.
Although I'm pretty affected, although it's the same old things.
GOT TO DO WHAT I GOT TO DO.

I shall pack/unpack the stuff I moved back plus my room. It's messy, dusty, filthy. Probably makes my mom feel better. Probably makes me feel better, therapeutic. hahaha!

Haha, on a side note my brother just asked me to accompany him to polyclinic. After a screamfest by my mom. That fat dick has got high cholestrol, my brother is obese, needs a checkup before his NS. And so I am going to start swimming during the holidays as well!!! For healhy and beauty.

And back to what I was saying. My heart aches when I see my daddy's frail and stiff body. My heart aches when I see my mom's fury taking its toll on her health. But all they think about is money. I feel bad. I don't feel like typing anymore. I wish I can do something more for my parents.

So anyway, the bottomline is I AM LOOKING FOR A HOLIDAY JOB!!! I cannot wait to start working, and I can only do it after my cambodia trip (which I am feeling very fucking guilty about because of the extremely recent happenings to the family situation). So I just hope I can do more for my parents, lighten their burden. So I can contribute to lighten the load. Give my parents 50-50 of the pay that I hope I get. So I'm thinking...should I still ask around for production-related jobs or others. Haven't come to a decision yet, so I won't be asking the people I have in mind yet. Somehow, I have a hunch I will still end up doing production-related. Shall consider my choices first. I want to learn more things on the job as well.

Any lobangs after mid-May, call me okay!

Oh and I'm so glad I will be seeing Chow tomorrow night (should be at least). awesome possumzz. am sure glad I found a friend in her.

Tattoo, or not?

Starrr Guitar's ringing in my head.

Tattoo, always at the back of my head.
But the spur came on again, thinking about it.
In the beginning, I always thought I want a simple star design somewhere small, a little obscure.
Then, I came across this tattoo.

A kitty! Haha, with angelic wings. And maybe a little bit of clouds around.
It looked really pretty, like My Protector.

Anyhow, it's time to study Espanol.

If I had a wish

All I would ask for right now will be this



Then, I will be the most contented lady.

You're Sinking Below

I settled my weary self in the lecture theatre. Restless fingers twirling the blue pen in my right hand. My shifty eyes darted all sides and corners and then I saw you walk in.
Your hourglass silhouette, clasped in the oversized sweater.
Cheekily, your deep-valley cleavage peered out where horny boys would love to snuggle and rub their noses in at the first chance.
I sat there, checked you out.
Your hips, yours breasts, your neck...then your face.

I realised how ugly you suddenly looked to me. And the sight of your face utterly disgust me.
My body cringed as I see you engage in your friendly girlfriends better with the person behind me.
There, I couldn't bear to look at your face for the rest of the night.